Disappointment and Depression!

think im depressed that's why im being over complusive. about work.
it could also be that i stress myself too much over work and became depressed.

whatever it is.
i spoke to sheila. told her i was pretty lost.
then she spoke to connie.
think connie probably thinks i worry unduly. and has this impression i can't handle stress.
and.. i do care alot anbout what others think of me. especially my boss.
i can't fail!

sometimes i wish i wasn't so hard on myself.
like today, i cancelled dinner and movie appointment just to finish work.
and of course, i didn't finish it tonight.
will continue tmr.

wonder if there'll ever be a time i put work second.