and... it's 2 days in a row! that i got a dressing down from connie, and i feel like crap.haven't felt so jia lat in say... 2 years?

so i'll have to work late and get the best thing out by tmr morning, the best thing she has ever seen. shit..

sigh. she must be so disappointed at me. the whole HBA was so empathatic towards me, people bugging me to have my dinner, eat more, and pats on my backs, occassional "are you okay?" .sigh! it's okay.. guess everyone needs a little 'down' to go 'up'.

the weight is wearing my shoulders off. i just can't take it anymore. maybe i should be less thoughtful and helpful to people, and do less of things that will not make me a better worker.