Do you know how much this email means to me? I can count the number of times I have been praised by IC. The first time was when I was two weeks into this firm, 2 years ago. And the few times all happened this month after I started on a project with him. Im soo.. thankful to God for helping me. I can’t even see what’s so good about my work. CP thinks i am paranoid and lack confidence. ( I think it is BS. Short for Bullshit) AM. Thinks im scared of him ( I am!) I just think he doesn’t really want to see my work. Basically not interested to push me higher.

Thank God for an answered prayer as well. I was struggling so much with a new guy (who is rumored to be really good!) from states who was supposed to tag around ( Boss calls it The Assistant, another BS) with me. I feared that he would break my rice bowl. Even so, I was thinking of how I can protect myself against him by not teaching him EVERYTHING, but partial. Insecurities are scary.. they make you lose sleep, hair, makes you temperamental. My family has tolerated the grumpy me for 2 weeks. I am so glad and thankful that he is now tagged to someone else who will show him the ropes.

Emotions  escalating towards the trip with family and grandpa this weekend! J I shall leave the office in 20 mins, and not worry about tomorrow. Yay!